Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank Him for all He has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7 NLT

I’m going to be honest and vulnerable with you today on this post. Last week was a horrible week for me. 

It all started on Monday when my dog started having seizures. He had been having some weird stuff happen the week or so before, but nothing like this. Thankfully, my son was home, and told me what was going on. I called a couple of vet’s offices on my way home from work, crying, asking about putting him down.

One of them said the doctor was in surgery and she would have to call me back.

When I got home, Toby was crying in pain. My heart broke. I sat on the living room floor for an hour holding him, crying, and telling him that he’d been a great dog and he could go to heaven now.

After that hour, and not hearing from the vet, my mom called one she used to use. They said I could bring him there. So, that’s what we did.

I was so upset, I couldn’t even think straight.

Toby was running the roads in a nearby county 5 years ago when one of my friends found him. She tried to locate his home, but no one claimed him. So, she went to Facebook to asked if anyone wanted him. We had a ton of dogs at the time, but we had a girl living with us who wanted a dog, so we got him for her.

I will never forget the first night he was here, and he jumped on their door to go out in the middle of the night. It scared me to death! LOL

Toby was with me through all of the months my marriage was falling apart, as well as all these years since I’ve been divorced.  I wasn’t really in the bed alone because Toby was with me. He was a good dog.

Last year he was diagnosed with diabetes, and a few months later went blind. I was giving him insulin twice a day.

Well…. here is the part I have to forgive and stop focusing on…. That vet’s office called back. 3 1/2 hours AFTER I called the first time. By this time, I’d already helped Toby over the rainbow bridge, because had I not, he would have been suffering for hours.

The first question posed to me when I answered the phone was “The doctor wants to know if you’ve been treating Toby for his disease.”

UM… WOW! Not, “How is he?” “Do you still need us?” “What’s going on since we talked last?” No compassion.

I felt like I had just been kicked while I was down.

All of that crying jacked up my sinuses. Today, I have been coughing since Thursday and the only thing I know is it’s all related. So, I haven’t felt well since Monday. I even came home two days last week and put on my pj’s around 6:30pm. My house is a mess. I haven’t felt like doing anything.

I fully believe that what we focus on matters. I had been focusing on my bad week. I had been thinking about how awful all of it was… when I should have been looking up.

I was laying in my bed the other day, and I have a picture on the wall above my computer desk. It says, “Love is patient, love is kind, love does not insist on it’s own way, love believes all things, endures all things, love never fails.” 1 Corinthians 14:4-8

When I bought it, I saw someone in the store from my work church. I remember telling her, “I’m not married, but I’m buying this anyway.” Then it hit me… DUH!

LOVE is GOD! (1 John 4:8) This isn’t about the “love” emotion stuff. It’s about GOD.

Replace it… God is patient, God is kind, God does not insist on His own way, God believes all things, bears all things, endures all things, GOD NEVER FAILS.

Focusing on the negative gets you nowhere FAST! With all of the latest news reports, it would be easy to get side tracked. I think things have always been bad in the world, what’s happening is we have the internet now so we see it quicker.

Are you doing what I was? Focusing on the negative?

Let’s stop it. I want to focus on God, and how awesome He is. I want to think about the good things He has done and continues to do for me.

Are you with me?

God bless you today and always!